Little Things in Red
“When you dip her in the middle of the dance floor, it is the color of her dress. When she whispers in your ear, it is the color of her lips. When you make love, it is the trace you want her to leave all over your body. When she places her palm over your heart, it is the color that comes to the surface as her fingertips trail like a sentence that can never be finished. When you see her in the bedroom with another, it is the color of your breath. When you smash the vase in the hall, it is the color that threatens you to abandon the shattered pieces. When you scream at the top of your lungs, it is the color that pierces the atmosphere. When she hears you, it is the color of her pulse. When you look in her eyes for the last time, it is the fading color of your heart falling to your knees. It is not the color you see when she leaves.” - Tyler Ford
i. Seventeen days ago, someone made me realize that the most painful word in the English language is “stay”.
ii. There were nights that I can feel the caffeine rushing into my veins causing me not to go back to sleep. I cry at 3 am in the morning not because of the coffee, but how things will never be the same again.
iii. I sometimes daydream of how we should have ended up if I had that 15-second guts to admit how I truly feel, but feelings change and all I can do is think about it.
iv. The innocence we once had as kids vanished like smoke through time.
v. I loved 500 Days of Summer, but I didn’t believe that when people grow, they grow out of each other until our friendship changed. I am sorry, but I gave up on you a long time ago.
vi.You have no idea how tempting it is to go back to how it was back then; however, I will never learn if I keep on coming back to my comfort zone. I’m sorry, I miss you, but goodbye is really necessary.
Good day, people! I am still on bed, having no plans of today except church after brunch. I may head to McDonald’s after the worship service and try their bff bundle fries!!! Omg, sorry, just thrilled of the quantity of fries I’ll be eating in a while. Anyways, it has been months since my last entry of TSH, so this will be a very long post.
READING Everyday by David Levithan. On the last pages of the book and I just need someone to impede the feels coming out from me. This is a must-read, but if you do not like to get heartbroken at the end… do not, just do not. You are very welcome in advance, by the way.
WRITING on my planner. It was ages ago since I last updated my planner, so I just found time to update it today. Also checked on these coupons stuck on my planner. I have not used a single one since the year started even if I’m a regular in Starbucks… I just forget that these coupons even exist.
LISTENING to Dr. Grey and Dr. Sheperd, so I’m multi-tasking on this blog post and Grey’s Anatomy. I think I cried 5-6 times yesterday, yep, dramatic gurl over here. I just started last week, on the 2nd season today and I know that I still have a lot to see. This show makes me want to be a doctor right now, really.
THINKING of how ironic it is that people make it very easy to become selfish and prideful even with the people they have been with for years. So many people these days can do paragraphs defending themselves, but not being capable of apologies and sensitivity. It is sad, just sad.
SMELLING the familiar and old smells of my room. This will be one of the things I’ll miss when I leave for college. I think I’m starting to owe you guys an apology because I can’t stop talking about college. Anyways, to be honest, my room’s not the tidiest place you’ll see during the normal days, but I try so hard to clean things up.
WISHING to hit the beach with friends. There are currently no plans and there would be no chance of this happening, but I would really love to spend a night with my guys and do crazy stuff. I’ll really miss those peeps when we get to the next step of our lives in a few months.
HOPING to catch up with so many people. I do a lot of plans with people, but only 10% happens in real life.
WEARING a very comfy shirt and pajamas. Nothing really significant about it.
LOVING Snapchat. Aldous, my best friend, kept on asking me to, so I searched it on the app store yesterday and downloaded it. We totally looked like a loser last night doing the Snapchat and trying our best to screenshot our epic faces. It is really funny, swear. I am bugging a lot of people to download the app!!
WANTING a clear hard case shell for my laptop, but meh money says no. Well, I still do not need one, so I just save for that one in time and probably get it next month.
NEEDING to be with someone. It makes me miss school even more, but we have to adjust, I know. We have to live with this one, but I have to say that it scares me, really. Maybe, I just have to be honest with myself to let this fear go and make it a weapon in the future.
FEELING hopeful for a productive week! I will be going back to school and get my credentials, finally. Also stoked for some plans on the 17th, yay.
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Life Lately: Vacation Hits
1. Had an over night party with my guys. We barely slept, I felt and certainly looked like a zombie when I got home. Too many unforgettable things happened: jumping into the pool at 5 in the morning, surprising Norbin with an egg for his birthday, pouring hot sauce to Renzo, Drake and Norbin while they were asleep, English policy, making breakfast at 3am and things that just stays in there forever. Thank you, AJPM!
2. Alabang with the family. It feels good to be bonded with them every time.
3. Fell in love with Vinyls records last weekend. I was told by my mom that they used to have a vintage vinyl player before and she didn’t know where it went. Gahd, I am finding that soon.
4. Finally tried Brothers’ Burger with the family. As my friends know, I only eat cheeseburger from McDonald’s (period), but these burgers are the exception. Loved it over to the moon!!
5. We had a surprise despida party for my grandparents at Jolllibee. It was hard to fight the tears back because they will (are) stay in Canada for a good year, and the house is truly not complete without them. I am also thrilled for them because I checked Lolo’s Facebook (yes, he has) last night and their pictures were awesome and they look really happy in there.
6. So proud of J for getting the scholarship we have been praying for. :)
7. I have been eating a lot, but I’m also back on track, yep, I’m running again.
8. And because it is vacation, I am back on watching TV!! I’ve been ranting Asia’s Next Top Model (No bias, but Jodilly should’ve won!!!!), Meteor Garden (kilig hihihi) and The Legal Wife (yep, no judging pls) on Twitter lately.
9. Watching Grey’s Anatomy and you guys have no idea how the show made me so emotional already, I hate the feels, okay.
10. Arranging some files for college enrollement is really stressful, but also exciting. I’ve been joined to 3-4 UP(LB) groups on Facebook and it’s been on the top of my notifications since last week… there were so many questions for the enrollment, STS, and stuff, haha!
I think we spend too much time wondering why we’re not good enough. We spend too much time overanalyzing, overthinking, and overreacting. We waste too much time putting ourselves down, so much that we don’t ever stop to see that well, we are good enough. You are good enough. We spend too much time with our heads down and hearts closed, and never get a chance to look up from the ground and see that the sun is shining and tomorrow is another day.
I was elected last July of 2013 as the Seniors’ Organization president of our batch, almost a week after I lost the SBO elections. I was truly grateful to be given such responsibility, but at that moment, I didn’t know how stressful the position will be. We started to work on the yearbook, and when December showed in the calendars, I was told to plan the Graduation Ball. So if you’ve seen some stress blog posts I wrote months ago, that was all because of this.
Senior year was very demanding, plus all the things we need to accomplish for the graduation ball to come to life. I felt like a zombie for a month or two. It was the biggest challenge I had since I started to lead 3 years ago, but the sacrifices were all worth it even if not everything I had in mind came to reality. It was frustrating, but Father Gabby taught our group to become flexible with the changes, so we did.
The Graduation Ball was held at school. Honestly, the school as the venue was our last option, actually, it was never an option. I was wrong to set my mind that the Graduation Ball will happen outside the school grounds. We already had the deal with Summit Ridge and they even adjusted their package with our budget, but the survey given to the parents didn’t go well. I got really frustrated, but breaking down was not the answer. We were in need of an alternative. We tried to contact other venues, but it was already February that time, so we settled at the school.
Town’s Delight was the one who catered our party. I was satisfied with the gym’s setup, plus the food was exceptionally good!!
Thanking these girls for being the best MCs during the party. Job well done, Karina and PC!!
with Cess, Precious and Isa. This is probably the only picture I looked like a human… so yeah.
Thanking Jezza for staying at the photo booth all throughout the party!
Band presentation: 5th gear (Stacy, Kyle, Caryl, Norbin, Simon)
Cherry on top (Ica, Nocum, Justin T., Gabby, Justin S.)
Warren with AJPM were the peeps who opened the dance floor
Billy and Therese
Father Hannibal’s statue really looks creepy during the night.
I wasn’t really able to party all night, but seeing the seniors enjoy the ball.. it was all worth it. The pagod from sleepless nights and the hours spent on making communication letters all vanished after the party.
After some time, I decided to be on hiatus when it comes to student services on college. I was not really able to focus on my studies during high school, so I really need to take a rest on leadership and focus on my studies alone in college.
Themes by The Little Mermaid, Kisty